Nothing but Song

Feeling :  contemplative  Listening :  If It Isn\\\'t Love - New Edition  Reading :  Something Wicked This Way Comes - Ray Bradbury

I’m now going through TAI withdrawal. I just had entirely too much fun that night, and I can’t get over it, haha.

Speaking of The Academy Is…, plz vote for them at the mtvU Woodie Awards for Best Performing Woodie & Best Viral Woodie. It’s free, and you can vote multiple times. Like I told everyone on MySpazz, even if you vote for someone else, please vote for my band just once.

I resisted posting about this at first, because it was a shock and I wasn’t sure I would be able to formulate my sentences properly. But I think I’ve coped with it long enough to be coherent. My best friend back in Cali, T, lost her mom, C, last week. C had a reaction to some medication she was taking, and it was too late when they found her.

I called T the day after she posted on MySpace, and in all the years I’ve known T, I’ve never seen her sad. She was always the one to get me excited about things because I was such a slacker in that department, unless it was about to spazz about music. She introduced me to Harry Potter, and I’ll never forget that. Just hearing how tore up she sounded on the phone made me hurt for her.

I think that’s a problem of Virgos. We feel much too deeply for our loved ones. Hearing about C’s passing sent me into an emotional void. It’s hard to explain. All I know is that it’s a damn good thing it was slow at work, because I wanted to curl into the fetal position and disappear. I called my ma at work and left a message on her voice mail to tell her, and partly because I wanted to hear her voice. I just wanted to know she was okay.

I hope that T finds some peace. That’s all I could ever want for her now. It’s been a terrible year for her emotionally. It’s hard to tell someone you’ll pray for them when they don’t believe in God, but I said it anyways.

What really makes me incredibly sad about C’s passing is that she died alone. My mom lives in Cali, and we live in Las Vegas. When she was in the hospital for her irregular heartbeat, we couldn’t be there for her.

All of this reminds me of my domain name, memento mori, remember your mortality. Don’t be so full of yourself to not realize that it can be taken away from you in the blink of an eye.

Otherwise, I’m okay. I think.

I’m actually staying on top of my homework. Shocking, isn’t it? So I can’t complain abt. that, rofl.

I have a paper due in Bible as Lit, but it’s one of those you can write an hour before it’s due and still get a decent grade on it. I’m like the greatest bullshitter when it comes to writing papers, and I shouldn’t say that. It just comes so natural to me, it’s like bullshit. rofl.

And really, it’s not going to be incredibly taxing. It’s just what story/character stood out the most to you out of all the readings thus far. I chose Cain and Abel. The nature of good and evil fascinates me to no end. What makes a person evil? What makes an evil person do what they do? So that was a natural fit for me to base my paper on. Plus I wouldn’t mind committing some fratricide in this house sometimes.

I have a presentation on Zitkala-Sa in my Writing About Lit class next week, which I feel pretty confident about. I could only find one good article about her writings, so I just chose that for my presentation. I mean, my presentation itself can’t be any worse than the ones I’ve seen this semester.

Speaking of Writing About Lit, I think I completely screwed myself in terms of degree requirements. My catalog year requires 2 classes that were combined to make Writing About Lit for the incoming students on this catalog year. If I’m understanding this correctly, in order to get my degree, I need 2 classes they don’t offer anymore!

Drama! Horror! Meep.

I emailed the Liberal Arts advisor, so hopefully they can shed some light on this ’cause this shit is bananas.

New musical obsession: Patrick Wolf. Everyone over at TKO is swooning hXc. I have his Burberry ads on my wall. And siriusly, “Tristan” is my favourite song ever.

I bought this muted red nail polish the other day that I am absolutely in love with. It’s called “Sweet” from the Sally Hansen Hard as Nails Xtreme Wear line. No matter what I do, Sally Hansen withstands the crap I put my hands through all day long. Which is why I named my blog entry after it ’cause it’s just that cool.

I hope everyone is okay. I’ve noticed that ppl aren’t posting as often as they used to. I dunno why, but I just thought I would post to say that I’m okay.

?: “Any new musical obsessions?”