Feeling :  accomplishedaccomplished  Listening :  Valerie - Mark Ronson & Amy Winehouse  Reading :  League of Extraordinary Gentlemen, Vol. 1

I got my tax return, whoo-hoo! It ain’t much, but this is the first year since I’ve been filing my tax return where I actually got something back. Every other year I’ve owed money. Owed! Who owes the government money? JFC.

I’m expecting the stimulus package next month as well, which will help immensely with my finances. If I planned it correctly, I can kill one of the credit card payments I have right now with it. I didn’t get direct deposit though, so I’ll be getting another paper check. What a hassle. I’m so doing direct deposit next year. I don’t think the website I filed with had that option. But that’s okay. I learned my lesson.

I’ve finally got the hang of the ins and outs at work. There’s still little things that I keep forgetting (such as remembering to tell people that there is certain protocol to follow for deliveries and pick-ups), but I haven’t had a sale, shipment or copy job go South yet. Everyone’s really friendly and nice. I like being busy, and when a show’s breaking down, it gets crazy busy.

The only thing I have noticed already that I don’t like is when people will cut the line or see an empty space, lean on the counter, and stare at me. They try and give me the “if I stare at her long and hard, she’ll stop whatever she’s doing and help me!” kind of stare. Ugh, like staring at me is going to get my attention. I have nieces, m’kay? I am the queen of ignoring annoying people. It’s unnerving, but I can handle it.

Still not a fan of waking up so early, but it’s kinda nice. I can go home and chill at night. I take that back. My family has normal hours, so I have to deal with them busting all up in my room at night, bothering me. I need at least an hour to myself to unwind. I get home, take a shower and go online and do stupid shit. And I can’t lock my door ’cause they’ll knock on it until I answer. And telling them to go away is useless. Gah.

My ma and I figured out I don’t have many years left on my car loan. It’ll be mine, free and clear, in less than 3 years. That is definitely something to look forward to. I bought it brand-new ’cause I didn’t have any money socked away. Yeah, big mistake, considering how uneven my job history has been. I’ve only missed one payment, and that was last year when I was changing jobs. I’m looking forward to owning it free and clear. She ain’t much (an ‘05 Nissan Sentra), but she gets me where I need to go.

I’ve been selling my books like mad on Amazon, the ones I could bear to part with anyways. The extra money helps, truth be told. Since I send everything by Media Mail, I pretty much break even. I don’t make much but at least someone out there is enjoying the book. As a bookphile, that’s all that matters to me.

It’s kinda weird. I have had TKO for almost 4 years, come September. People come and go in the Killers fandom. So when the new kids hear inklings of the Great TKO Drama, they have to know. I try to be honest about it because basically if you’re knee deep in the fandom, you’ll hear about it eventually anyways. You might as well hear it from someone who had to experience it first hand.

It still aches when I have to explain it though. It was definitely a low point in the history of TKO, and for me, as a fan of the band. I love the Killers; I always will. I hate that the Great TKO Drama briefly tainted the fandom for me. But I will support them, no matter what. I believe in them. That’s how much they mean to me.

And if I could take it all back, I would, just so I wouldn’t have to live with this in my heart.

?: “Heard any good music lately?”